So, this week I had a moment that really affected me. (In a good way I mean.) I was driving with Squid here (that's her nickname before you get alarmed) after her swimming class and she said something to me. This isn't the first time she has said something that had a profound impact on me, and it's so amazing where wisdom or encouragement can come from. She was talking about her previous babysitters and she said, "now we have you, and you're a photographer." That so deeply resonated with me, because I struggle to call myself a photographer, but she already sees me as one. I'm there in her eyes. I see all these amazing professionals everywhere and I think, one day when I am as good as them I will call myself a photographer.
The thing is, my desire to be a photographer is not actually about me, but my struggle to own the fact that I AM a photographer already could get in the way of me making beautiful memories for people. As you may have read in earlier blog posts, for me it's about documenting ourselves, our relationships, our love while we have it, being present, and appreciating the people we have in our lives and how lucky we are. Squid reminded me to own it now, don't procrastinate and wait for perfect circumstances. I hope that I always feel there is more to learn, because there is! If I think I have made it, I shouldn't be doing it anymore but it's finding a balance of humility and confidence. I have my dream in the palm of my hands and I don't even acknowledge it out loud out because of fear. Well there's nothing like a public declaration of insecurity to act as a motivator for me to own it now!
After this experience this week, I noticed on Facebook how many amazing people there are. So many people are out there making things happen. It's so easy to just see people doing things, advertising, taking chances, creating businesses and things and not think anything of it. But this is a shout out for them. For all the people who have gotten over the fear, and did something anyway, and owned it completely. It's funny how even people you used to know, or barely know can inspire you. At primary school there was a girl called Emma Rowland, who I haven't seen for years (I hope she still remembers me.) I was looking at her awesome Facebook page called Nailsbyemma and I was so inspired. She started this business by herself and is rocking it! She doesn't even know how inspired I am by her (yet). But that's the thing, when we own it, we can help others. I hope that this blog will help you to own it, or tell someone else that they've inspired you today.